I want to hide,I want to die.

I hate myself!!!Very much!!!
I always tell people that I don't have any stress.
But that's the fact,I really don't have stress.But when I do have stress,I don't know how to handle stress!I can't control myself,my emoyion and even my action!
I want to hide from the world!I want to die to avoid stress!Please forgive me!I am depressed roght now,I am sad,and I am going crazy!
I don't deal with stress well,and don't know how to get along with them!
Just leave me alone!let me go!!!
And for the car owner that I just banged your car,I am truly sorry!I didn't see you coming!because my mind is so packed, so many things to think until I never see you coming!I am sorry!sorry!!!